Everyone tells me
Not to be so afraid
Of you, loving you
But I'm just afraid
To love you completely.

I'm so afraid
Of failing you;
Not being what you desire
I don't want to hurt you.

I want to be different
From all the others;
Without you pushing me away
& I don't want to chase you off.

Yt with a past like mine
I'm so afraid
Afraid of fights,
Afraid of trusting you,
Afraid of being judged
Pushed away & being hurt.

But most of all
I'm afraid of repeating
Both our pasts.

I want to make you
Happy;
Erase all the stress
& all the other prblems.

I want to be the one
That you run to
The one to hold you at night
Take care of when your sick.

But I'm afraid
Of being too much like
A wife for you -
Of being something
You don't want in your life.